It feels like today, but at 12:23am it's actually yesterday. And I can't fall asleep because my mind is too busy asking me if I really know what I am doing. I have this nagging worry that things are going to implode; that this delicate balance of work, homeschooling, child-rearing, farming and gardening that I am just barely managing to hold together, is going to erupt into chaos or fall apart at any moment. The interior of the house is already at that point, and I'm feeling a bit...well...out of control.
I suppose that the only thing I can control, is that I have actually, on my own, chosen all of those passions to pursue.
But, despite all the lavender I surround myself with tonight, it's just been a tough day.
Garden tilled and waiting for me to play. Also included but not in view, two more plots to make room for some expanding crops.
We have two new friends! Violet and Lucy just joined the flock, and they are pretty amazing. Softest coats, and sweetest personalities. They are not so sure about the guinea hens, however.